Well it has been over a week since everything happened. Friday was the start of my new life. For the past week I have been trapped in the past not being able to see the light. Crying countless times, I had to say it was the hardest week of my life. For the last time, I tried again but then as expected the same answer was given. His reply was ‘It’s getting repetitive’ that’s when I noticed, it sure was. I didn’t know what was wrong with me at that time seriously. When he said that I felt terrible, knowing that he doesn’t want me to bother him anymore. So I finally let go and moved on. Declaring it on Facebook that I have officially moved on and striving for something new. But what’s funny is that he laughed at it and mocked me. Is there something funny about telling him that I’ve moved on? Can’t believe how much a person can change over a week time. I still had the respect for him during that week, but after knowing his true self tsk I dont think I can ever respect someone like that again. BUT! That’s the past. Whatever happened in the past stays in the past. A quote that I found meaningful on tumblr.
“An ex should stay an EX. They’re an EXample of the wrong love & an EXplanation for why you deserve better! ” prettypilpina of tumblr
If I understood or saw this message as soon as I broke up then I would had never attempted to ask him anything. I wouldn’t have cried over him or anything at all. Should have moved on and not look back. But then I saw this quote soon after...
“If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one, because if you really loved the first one you wouldn’t have fallen for the second.” – Johnny Depp
When I read this quote something just sparked me. Does this have some meaning to me? It then made me confused about my decision that I’ve made in early March. Was it him that I was supposed to be with or was it someone else nearby. At times I wonder if I did not choose him and went for someone else how would I be right now. But people make mistakes not once but many times. Humans are designed to make mistakes and learn from then in order to fit into society. From this relationship I learnt not to trust the other person too much because one day they will turn their back on you. “Don’t fall too deep” as one of my friends had told me because one day you will find yourself too deep in which you can’t escape.
That’s all in the past now and I can learn from it. May is going to start the new chapter in my life in which I try to avoid as many mistakes as possible. I’m going to find the right love of my life and not regret like this time. Make the most of the time that there is left in this world.
This is going to be the last post about this person ever. A wrap up of this persons importance in my life and signficance.Now its time for me to move on and be with someone I should of been with right at the beginning.
Bye past and welcome future
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