What am I doing?

I wonder what Im actually doing right now. Why am I treating myself like this, why am I treating him like this? Its only been around 50 or so minutes and its killing me. Not talking for one minute kills me. Everywhere I go, he's there. Whatever I do, I think of him. What do I really want. I really want to know myself. I miss him, so so much. I wish that I can tell him that. Fml I cant do anything 

Random

Finally I decided to go back to blogging. Been sooooooo long! Just finished my exams for the year totally winged it all. Now I'm on break, finally. This year had totally gone by so fast. So many wonderful and sad things had happened to me. But overall I gotta say this is a pretty damn good year. Life's going great nearly 7 months since we've been together happiest moments of my life. His birthday is coming up this week, hope I can organize something special for him. Then 7 months anniversary the next day. What a week. No plans for this holidays yet. Don't know what I should do. Prob workout, swimming, shopping, movies. hangout with JO and the girls. 


On Friday something happened to me. It was exactly like in a drama. The feeling of it happening was so ...yeah. For the first time he kneel down and tied my shoelaces! How adorable is that?! I was soo touched! Even teared a little. I know might be over exaggerating but hey, that's pretty romantic ya think. 


Okay Ill sum up what I did for the past week


Monday- Maths studies exam
Tuesday- free, so I went to pick up Joie from school
Wednesday- Psychology exam, totally aced it haha! Went swimming with Joie for the first time ;D
Thursday- Pick up Joie from school, had lunch 
Friday- Picked up Joie again then went to eat my favorite ice cream! Karaoke then dinner :)
Saturday- stayed home sleep in and yeah...Played games with Joie!
Sunday- blogging . 


I know what I'm writing is boring but hey at least I'm writing again. Cant wait to see Joie again, miss him soo much been 2 days.


Hilarious! Seeya :) 

Smiles & laughter

Yesterday is where for the first time I felt extremely happy. I have not been so happy like this ever since we started dating until now.  The moment where  both of us laughed and smiled each other I knew that this was happiness. For the first time I actually looked right in his eyes. The feeling was different from usual. I usually wouldn't stare in his eyes more than 1 second, cause it feels awkward. But somehow I knew it was the right moment to look at them. It was a really beautiful sight. I've noticed its always him who looks and stares at me. I think its time for a change. I want to treat him specially like how he treats me. I want to smile back at him when he smiles at me. I want to bring him happiness like how he brings happiness to me. I just want the moment to be right. I have not ever loved a guy so much in my life and I want to keep it that way until the world ends.  Thank you for everyone so far. Lets hold hands and continue our journey that awaits ahead...

Masks

Things seems like its slowly changing and I hate it.  Its hard to open up to others especially the one close to you. I 'm afraid to speak up at times because I know if I do, then I'll lose what means the most to me. The frustration that is captured inside of me is starting to ache. I want to cry and let it all out, but who will comfort me? I shall continue and live on. The mask that I wear shall be kept. The face that is hidden behind the mask shall not be seen by anyone. You'll never know what is really behind that layer.

Just Perfect

Haven't had time to blog latelly cause of exams and all. Well these are photos of things in life that makes me happy. There's not much to say, but I currently think that everything is " Just Perfect" :)

A meaning to life

You are my happiness...

Mason

Well everyone should know by know that I have a big obession with babies. Yes I love babies and love being around them. They bring a smile to my face when things arent going so well. Here is some pictures of the most cutest baby ever, Mason aka my son. I may seem creepy for having so many pictures of babies but I cant help but have them.