Smiles & laughter

Yesterday is where for the first time I felt extremely happy. I have not been so happy like this ever since we started dating until now.  The moment where  both of us laughed and smiled each other I knew that this was happiness. For the first time I actually looked right in his eyes. The feeling was different from usual. I usually wouldn't stare in his eyes more than 1 second, cause it feels awkward. But somehow I knew it was the right moment to look at them. It was a really beautiful sight. I've noticed its always him who looks and stares at me. I think its time for a change. I want to treat him specially like how he treats me. I want to smile back at him when he smiles at me. I want to bring him happiness like how he brings happiness to me. I just want the moment to be right. I have not ever loved a guy so much in my life and I want to keep it that way until the world ends.  Thank you for everyone so far. Lets hold hands and continue our journey that awaits ahead...

Masks

Things seems like its slowly changing and I hate it.  Its hard to open up to others especially the one close to you. I 'm afraid to speak up at times because I know if I do, then I'll lose what means the most to me. The frustration that is captured inside of me is starting to ache. I want to cry and let it all out, but who will comfort me? I shall continue and live on. The mask that I wear shall be kept. The face that is hidden behind the mask shall not be seen by anyone. You'll never know what is really behind that layer.